One thing to note about Kit Myers is that he does his best to remain apathetic. Due to his blood magic and the path it could lead him down, he must remain detached from the world at large and not allow himself to be overwhelmed with strong emotions. Much of his magic comes from that, and any outburst could cause his magic to bubble up from inside of him and hurt him from the inside out. If his magic corrupts, then he loses himself in it and stops being Kit. Instead, he becomes something unrecognisable, something so reliant and distorted by the magic that it’s all he becomes. Power would be all he wanted, and he would do anything in order to achieve the goal of becoming powerful. Due to this, he detaches himself from situations around him and refuses to let himself care.
This, however, has become undone by Elliot. Since meeting him at sixteen, Kit has found himself relying on the other too much, caring about him too much and becoming jarred whenever Elliot lands himself in a situation that could harm him. It makes Kit worry, it makes him care in a way that he knows he shouldn’t but can’t help, because who can really control their emotions enough to block them out completely? Although he has had years of practice of making himself come off as lacking in emotions, something inside of him still reaches out in order to care. Elliot pulled out this part of him, wiggled his way into Kit’s heart and made him feel again. Sometimes Kit hates it, despises the way that Elliot has ruined years of hard work and hates the other for doing it, but a lot of the time he cares too much about him to be angry about it.
This disconnection he’s tried to encourage in himself makes him apathetic to the world at large. Someone could be being mugged in front of him and he probably wouldn’t raise a hand to help. His morals are skewed due to his desire to remain passive to the world.
These skewed morals make him come off as somewhat selfish. It seems that the only thing he cares about is making sure that he remains impassive and uncaring, and so the only thing he cares about is himself. Others don’t matter to him as much as his own worries do. The only exception is Elliot, and a few other friends he made whilst in school and after it thanks to the former.
Still, he knows for sure that if something were to happen to Elliot, he wouldn’t care about what would happen with his magic and his own being – he would use everything in his power to help him if it was a dire enough situation that he knows the other would not be able to get out of himself. It’s a side of himself that he doesn’t like showing; one that he manages to hide most of the time, only enhancing his selfish image, but he doesn’t quite care about how he comes off. Kit knows what he’s actually like, and so do his friends, and thus Kit can safely say that self-image isn’t something he obsesses over like some other people do.
It takes a lot to set Kit off. He doesn’t anger easily, nor does he upset. It would take something huge to cause him to lose control of himself, and so he has a large amount of self-control. People don’t push his buttons. In fact, they don’t really register with him. Instead, everyone is like a side character in the movie of his life, with only few others becoming secondary protagonists that he would bother with.
Overall, Kit is actually very, very scared of what could happen to him if he loses control of this self-imposed apathy that he has worked so hard to cultivate. Deep down, he actually cares a lot, but it takes too much for this to show through and only few people have managed to dig this up out of him. Indeed, he’s still young, scared, and makes mistakes when he shouldn’t, though he doesn’t let this fear show through. It’s only his frantic attempts to find answers to his issues that show how worried he is about his powers, how much he wants to be able to let go of the tight control and be himself again – the bright child that he was before his parents ruined him, and before he ruined himself.
Personal Moral Codes: Kit would fall under the 'Neutral Evil' category. His lack of caring and only being interested in his own ends make it so that he would be happy to use others in order to find answers, or would break rules in order to get what he wants. His only interests are keeping himself safe and the few, few friends he has. However, he won't go out of his way to harm others if it's for nothing and if there is no end to it, and won't use others just for the sake of using them.
Insecurities/Personal Demons: The main thing Kit struggles with are his issues with control, both over his magic and his emotions. These issues with control make him scared that one day he's going to let loose and he won't be recognisable to either himself or his friends - he won't be Kit anymore. He also fears for Elliot and the things he does and the situations he ends up getting himself into. Most of the time, Kit can't help, and it scares him that one day he's going to lose Elliot - and fears especially that it will be due to his own inaction.
His magic is his main personal demon, and the figure of what he could become. It's something he has nightmares about, wakes up from sleep with his heart pounding in his chest and an image of him, but worse - terrible and disgusting and addicted and corrupted - running through his mind.
Abilities/Powers/Weaknesses:
• blood manipulation
• terrakinesis (control over earth)
• minor pyrokinesis (control over fire)
• power enhancement (with his blood magic)
• minor control in necromancy/demonic through its connection to the unnatural plane, though it's weak and wanes frequently, so it's not something he can frequently tap into
• he can't use his magic frequently (if at all) due to his own fears. it weakens him and prevents him from being the powerful person he could become, though this would lead him down a dark path that he isn't ready to tread into.
Ability/Power/Magic Warping: • Power enhancement may cause power weakening instead
• Terrakinesis/pyrokinesis goes out of control? It's one of his fears!
• Actively trying not to use his magic forces it out of him and so he has to use it in ways he doesn't?
Inventory: he dresses like he's still a teenager (+ regular jeans & some slip on trainers), a knife used to acquire blood, a regular phone (iphone probably), a wallet, a notepad & a couple of pens in both his jacket and his jeans
Writing Samples:
• kit i need you
• mud smoothies
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OUT OF CHARACTER
Player Name: Sam
Player Age: 18+
Player Contact: leyline, plurk
Other Characters In Game: n/a
In-Game Tag If Accepted: Kit Myers: Sam
Permissions for Character: Here
Are you comfortable with prominent elements of fourth-walling?: Yes
What themes of horror/psychological thrillers do you enjoy the most?: characters fearing themselves and what they could become are one of my biggest - seeing that in front of them, interacting with it, or even just seeing an image of it (hence kit's character). otherwise i just like horror and psychological thrillers all 'round!
Is there anything in particular you absolutely need specific content warnings for?: none!
Additional Information: n/a
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